choice & the battle of the self

I have never before in my entire existance known the true meaning of self, until now that is. The reason I say this is, I have relized that the only way to find true self is to be solitary. To experiment with talents and or passions freely to find what works for the individual. I have been soul searching for a while now, contemplating my lifes endless successes and tiring trials and as a whole I know now where it is I want to go and who it is I want to be. That my friends is my self. I am happy here as me, as much as me as I can be. Part of that me is the music I play. I have mentioned before this phenomenon if I may and I have had many choices delivered in persuing this part of myself. And the other side of me, life and family. I deserve both in perfect parellel to happiness. So now I am faced with choice..... Choice, the answer to the brains endless desire to spin its wheels. Choice....I have many choices to make from here, many wheels spinning. I am consistantly performing in this little town a growin' and now I have to decide how to keep up this momentum. I have a full time job, rent to pay and a darlin' daughter to assist into adulthood. Oh yes, I typically forget, there is also me to take care of in the midst of it all. So my decision making process is a bit jar'd at the moment.....how can I divi' out time accordingly to create win win situations all around in every facet of this jem I call life. This is where the self and the universe collide in a sense. Now how do I choose to balance them out? At the moment I am anxious to create many musical moments in Salt Lake, and out side the city too. At this moment I am anxious to create the perfect life situation for me and my family....I long for unity and creation to become of me....Family & Music....could music become part of my family in that I won't have to choose between the two....could they just line up accordingly and entwine together and then wrap themselves around little old me? This is where my thoughts lie today. I am content with myself. Now I get to move forward, no hurry I suppose, no hurry to make that decision....perhaps taking this life day to day is the exact way to pursuade the answer in this brain o' mine....the wheels are turnin' endlessly.

musical moments

The life of musical sorts.

Ahhhh...music. The ebb & flow of emotion through creative beings for all beings to experience & share. A life staple for this geetar'n song write'n gal. Something I have know was in me since I was just a wee little'n. So here you have found me, blogg'n away about it...cause its just to good to contain. Yep, no foe about it. I urgently must give this goodness away for it has kept me for all to long now. Music, hmmm.